Pointing Fingers
why do we point fingers? perhaps we want to justify our actions. as humans, it is in our instinct to defend ourselves, people close to us, our beliefs, etc. A few days ago, I got angry at somebody for some minor thing. I believe that minor things are important as well. If there is early intervention, those minor things will cease to happen in the future.
anyway, I got mad and made a great speech worthy of a… i dunno. after i calmed down, i realized i should’nt have stated my feelings that way. but it was already done. before i point my finger, i should’ve asked myself first if it was really worth the madness. until now, i carry the consequence of that action and i feel so stupid. someone close to me told me that bringing the past will never bear good things. how i wish to be an existentialist. however, i think that if we don’t take in the past, we will be bound to repeat the same mistakes all over again.
i am torn whether next time i will keep my mouth shut and keep my feelings to myself or confront the other party and prepare myself for some hard feelings. honestly, there is no one true way in dealing with things. there’s no one true way to live life. what can i do now? honestly, i wonder. still i wonder and still the answers won’t come.
